Let me start off by saying....if you are feeling very depressed and have feelings of hurting yourself or someone else...please go to the nearest ER.. I would hate to think anything drastic happened bc of these feelings
Ok, so I read part of your post and you don't have an MCAT score or all your prereqs right? Well With the 12 Ws I would say its not looking pretty. US MD/DO is almost crossed out. As far as carib schools, you can get in if you do well on MCAT and prereqs left. By this I mean, applying to the lower tier carib schools, they are much more forgiving. If you apply to Ross, you would likely be shooting for MERP.
The real question shouldn't be medicine or not. You can do a lot of things in medicine, tech jobs (radio, US etc), nurse, nurse assistant, home health aid, PAs, nutiritionists, social workers, researchers, pharmacists.... the list goes on. You don't have to be a doctor to go into medicine. Being the doc is probably the most stressful one and the one that is responsible for the most.
What you should be asking yourself is if you have the energy, dedication and character to endure 4 years of medical training with all the associated stresses. Im sure most, if not all students, have wondered at one point in their medical career what they have gotten themselves into. No matter what you hear and read, you have no idea how stressful and difficult it is to go through 4 years as a carib student. So the most important thing I would recommend is you first sit down and think if you have the ability to handle this and deal with it. If you are willing to do whatever it takes and jump past any hurdle placed in your way, then go ahead and finish up your prereqs asap take the MCAT and apply.
Ross Graduate- 2012
PGY1- Surgery Prelim