I agree with rokshana - stephew pretty much has it right always - If a person got zapped and that stage of training - You need to find a school that will touch you with an 11 foot pole. Yes , they are out there - In the time I have been on VMD - have seen all sorts of people/stories and general tall tales from people who don't own up to their own mess. Don't stay in denial of the situation. Many People - don't have clean nice stright lives. Jees, I know I am one of them.

My advice - own it - do some work on your "bad self" that got you there and then move forward with your life in what ever direction it takes you.